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Monday, September 29, 2008

and it is finally over. let us not need therapy for the post-production withdrawal symptoms that we will be suffering really soon.

legenda singapura was definitely a blast and very very worth it. i hold an umbrella, no doubt, but it was still an amazing experience. as always, made some new friends, tightened old bonds and had a ton of fun. k-box was a pretty good way to end the entire thing. as said by jeremiah, there is a high chance that legenda singapura may become more than just an open stage performance, and who knows, i might get to do more than just play calafare. a girl can dream, can't she. pictures below, knock yourselves out.
Legenda Singapura [1]
Legenda Singapura [2]

on another note, i think i will be spending the most of this week at home. i'm supposed to have an interview with a kindergarten to teach dance to pre-schoolers, but the employer has yet to call me, so that's still very uncertain too. apart from that, i got accepted into the Developing Artiste Programme under jitterbugs, so after this week, i'll be spending a lot of time at jbugs for the next one year.
i'm still waiting on word about my module status for school next sem. i'm sure everything will work out. hopefully.

502 days

<3 9:56 PM

Monday, September 22, 2008

no blog entry in two weeks, must be some kind of record for me in a long time.
i really don't have much to say, or rather, i have a lot to say but i just don't feel like putting fingers to the keyboard (pen to paper, get it?). i mean, when has it ever been that i have nothing to say.

so anyway, my b'day celebrations have been over as of last sunday, pictures can be found at the links below and together with the rest of the picture links by the side.
birthday '08 [1]
birthday '08 [2]
birthday '08 [3]
birthday '08 [4]

finally a day without rehearsals, but i must admit it feels weird, i keep looking at the clock wondering if i'll be late for something. singapore river festival has been an interesting journey, rather fun, i must add. even though i still can't help but feel that i should be doing more than just holding an umbrella, i'm still having a ton of fun. it's really tiring though, but the rewards are well worth the exhaustion. the production, however, has made me really question my abilities as a dancer, wondering whether i really am only fit for a calefare position or did i just flop my auditions? am i a dancer who can salsa or am i just a salsa dancer? i've been reviewing videos after videos and making endless comparisons with my fellow counterparts, and it'd obvious that i'm not half bad. but it takes a toll on you when a well known choreographer doesnt feel the same way or when your friends dont think that you're good enough. it's hard to believe in yourself when no one else (that matters) seems to believe in you. the demoralization has made me come to wonder, since i have decided i will not be doing this full time, is it worth my time, money and effort just to wind up disappointed in myself?

enough said.
singapore river festival's legenda singapura will be performing the whole of next weekend at 8pm at Central @ Clarke Quay. the whole item is really nice, so do drop by and take a looksee if you get the chance to. it's been given rave reviews by the public, so i'm sure it's worth watching.

and again, with my woes, i suffer sleepless nights.
509 days.

<3 3:14 PM

Sunday, September 07, 2008

careless whispers.
never going to dance again the way i danced with you.

makes me wonder, why is "dance" a word that is used almost as frivolously as the word "love"? as cliche as it sounds, that line seems so real to me. coming from a dancer, trust me when i say, i perfect partnership on the dancefloor only happens once in a lifetime. not because it can never happen again, just that it will never feel the same. it's almost like falling in love, and that falling out of it. leaving your heart to search endlessly for the same feeling. this is where, "every love's a different experience" is very real. not that you will never be able to find perfection again, just that it will never be the same as before. it works the same way when we are searching endlessly for perfection. keep searching for something that will aid the rediscovery of that ever familiar feeling, and you will never know perfection even if it was standing right in front of you.
makes sense?

524 days.

<3 9:21 PM