poise ; dance ; love

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Wednesday, August 30, 2006

hubby loves me lots and lots. i make her so happy. right hubs? haha

i love her too luh. but if i stay friends with her, i will have a new fox wardrobe.

18 in 9 days =)

<3 8:24 PM

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

successful[i think] interview.

really good beef stew.

dannyjustin[i still think there's a nice ring to it] pool-orientated humiliation. are you guys convinced that i suck at pool? heh. but i must say, i had a blast. let's do it again[shoots myself for just saying that].

failed trip to funan. remembered i had dance and flew home.

tuesday routine, dance.

almost daily routine, blog.

my head really hurts. it's a headache, in case your wondering.

all the best for your last paper dannyjustin =)

<3 11:50 PM

Sunday, August 27, 2006

i did 10K in 1hr 30mins. pretty good for someone who doesn't run in her lifetime.

apart from that, my efforts to not cry have failed me. i've cried on 3 seperate occassions today. there is this burn in my heart. as if its stuck in a hot furnace and cant get out. it hurts so much. i call it a burning flame of despair. because that is exactly how i feel, absolutely despaired. i've tried messaging him and i tried calling him. from that i have come to two conclusions. 1.he is avoiding me. 2.he is without his phone for some reason. i'm gonna go with option number 2, even if number 1 is more likely to be the case. sometimes, you have to lie to yourself in order to feel a little better. i'm sure i'll get my chance, he isnt really the avoiding type of guy. or at least i dont think. then again, people change in two years.

yep. thay surely do.

<3 7:15 PM

Saturday, August 26, 2006

i just feel numb. do you know the feeling? it's when you just dont feel anything. ost of the time, you just dont want to feel anything. after spending the night with him, i dont want to feel anything. it's like this, no one makes me feel the same way he does. i know it sounds really corny and cheesy all at the same time, but i don't know any other way to explain it. i just feel invincible when i'm with him. like i can face the world and nothing or no one can hurt me. there's just somthing about him you know? something i just cant put my finger on, but i'm sure you get what i mean. your a smart crowd, right? so why is it that i refuse to feel anything? it's simple really, if i start feeling, then i'll start missing. that will lead on to wishing. and evetually, wishing will turn into crying. and i dont want to cry. not that i thing crying is a bad thing, dont get me wrong there, it's just that there are only so many times that you can cry over a person hoping it will make a difference. once that is up, crying over that person would be a waste of time and energy. not forgetting water. look at it this way, the last time i saw him was two years ago, and back then i cried over him alot. didnt make a difference then, it probably wouldn't make a difference now. i know that i cant be sure, but why take the risk? for the first time in two years i'm actually on good terms with him. i'm not going to risk that by telling him how i feel. besides, if he is as smart as i think he is, i'm sure he knows how i feel. and how deeply i feel it. he could beat any other guy hands down. like i said, there's just something about him. maybe after two years things are different, maybe this time i might actually stand a chance. and if i decide to test the limits of my sanity and go for it? dont worry, you'll be the first to know.

<3 3:14 AM

Friday, August 25, 2006

let me photograph today for you.

flower-nise butterfly-allison ;rings

saw sho today. this it how the thought process of the meet went [for me anyway]
sho:hi miss, can i help you?
me:[1st thought] woah. tall good looking person
me:[2nd thought] erm, tall familiar looking person
me:[3rd thought] oh gawd. it's sho.
me:hi sho.
keep in mind that all three thoughts happened in a matter of split seconds.

apart from that, there was beijing briefing and the usual thursday routine, dance.

all the best to danny and justin [dannyjustin;has a nice ring to it, no?] for their upcoming papers through out the week. i know exactly how you feel. or i knew rather. heh.
and to all those who are still slogging and mugging ,and actually read my blog, for the crucially graded events that are about to befall upon their souls. haha. ok, that sounded a little sadistic and moronic. all the best yea?

people in shang hai are call shang hai-nese. [courtesy of my sister]

<3 2:15 AM

Thursday, August 24, 2006

i balanced my accounts at exactly 6.27pm. i think accounts turned out to be more of a rush than stats.
exams are over =)

this is a recollection of the happenings of the day before. as they say, a picture speaks a thousand words, so go imagine.

crazy tourist wannabes. believe me, i know.

i dont insist on a six pac, but you must agree it's a plus.
one day i will make sure we do what i want to do.
i never knew malls could be more appealing when everything's closed.
i'm pissed with your friend.
on the other hand, without your friend, we'd have never made it to east coast.
east coast was nice. real nice.
thank you for the drink and for sending me home.
prove me wrong. so we can do this again sometime.

<3 1:24 AM

Monday, August 21, 2006

i kissed away my A. but i must say, stats was good fun. exhilarating even.

3 down 1 more to go!

is it human nature to be inconsiderate? so i'm on the bus, minding my own business. then this girl sits behind me and switches on her phone stereo. someone shld educate her on the beauty of ear phones. the music wasnt even nice. it was like really bad techno. and for someone who doesnt fancy techno to begin with, really bad techno is beyond unbearable. i had half the heart to turn ard and scream at her. doesnt it cross their puny minds that maybe, just maybe, their not being public concious? how can they sit they and do what their doing, and live with themselves?
so music girl gets off. then this phone rings, an extremely odd ringtone if i may point out. its picked up, "HELLO AH! YA LAH! REACHING ALREADY!". turns out the lady [yes,lady] was siting 4 seats in front of me. you can imagine how loud she was, being fact that i heard her every word. i pity the person sitting next to her. poor poor soul.

i guess it is being human. and sad to say, some people are just more human than others.

<3 5:18 PM

Sunday, August 20, 2006

hubby's all grown up.
i'm so proud of her.

oh (breathes deeply-pulls out hanki and blows nose-tears-sniffles)

heh!

<3 12:12 AM

Friday, August 18, 2006

macroecons was an ultimate disaster. in fact, i think that would be an underestimation of what it was.

'the paper is easy if you have studied' erm ok. i did study. maybe just not enough. guess i should have put more effort. anyway, it's over. i'll just wait and pray that my test and project can save me from my pitiful state.

next up! stats. oh i just cant wait =)

2 down 2 more to go.

<3 3:33 PM

Thursday, August 17, 2006

marketing was actually not as devastating as i percieved. so it was alright. i think.

i sneezed through the paper

1 down 3 more to go

<3 3:56 PM

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

flash-woman
super-lame-man
teen un-titans

go figure!

<3 6:38 PM

HAPPY 6 MONTHS HUBBY GDINE!
i love euu!!!

<3 12:00 AM

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

so we go about our daily lives, and being the sad creatures we are, wishing and hoping and sometimes even praying that love would fall from the sky upon our needy souls. we talk about how much we want it, how much we need it. we yearn and we pine. but many a times, when we verbally yearn and pine, it always comes out wrong. it'll go something like this, "i wish i had someone to hold and someone to hold me" or "wont it be so nice if someone would call me every 5 minutes for no reason" or perhaps "i want to know that there is someone who will always be there". it's all wrong. cant you see?! when we vocalise our yearns for love and romance, we always miss out the most important factor. we miss out the person we're yearning for. come on, you and i know that it's never just 'someone', it's a specific person. sad to say, we dont realize it's a specific person. most of us dont anyway. we just feel we need someone, anyone. it is only when we get what we've been yearning for that we realize, "hey, he wasnt the one i wanted. i wanted that guy." then instead of being happy and blissful about it, we get all caught up in figuring out how to get out of it. then it just becomes a really sad situation. why is our species so picky? why do we never seem to be able to say what we mean and mean what we say? half the time, we unintentionally lead someone on, or intentionally- depends on how you look at it, then when we succeed, it still doesnt satisfy. now we have what we want, we've got what we felt so strongly that we needed. a companion. but he's not the right one?

suck it up. life's a bitch.

<3 2:19 AM

Sunday, August 13, 2006

you made the pretty lights even prettier. i had an awesome time.

didnt take any pictures. better yet, i have videos. heh. thank you for being my camera man. 4 continuous videos. [press play once, then press pause and wait for it to load]

click is a, in the word's of justin, wicked show. it was really good. and nisee, when you said i would cry, you didnt tell me i would cry so much =) the cinema was esp comfortable today. next time, use tissue ok? and stop laughing at me crying, not funny ok? haha. like i said, it was a good movie.

oh oh, i saw the whole, or almost anyway, of 1e3.

<3 1:44 AM

Friday, August 11, 2006

i really like this picture

<3 6:04 PM

Saturday, August 05, 2006

here's something to think about

persuasive speech: convince you to give your $50 to my charitable organisation

organisation: Covenant Vision Center [touch Jesus He heals]
status: absolutely non-profit organisation
source of income: God and his people
run by: absoulte Faith in God

achievements to it's name
-healed aids
-healed cancer
-healed tumors
-healed the lame
-risen the dead
-released the opressed
-released the depressed
-empowered the jobless
-helped the needy
-healed the deaf
-cause the blind to see
and the list can go on and on

not much persuasion required. anyone would love to be part of an organisation like this. its reputation speaks for itself.

interesting huh?!

<3 12:31 AM

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

its a feeling
a sick in the stomach kind of feeling
its not medical
its emotional
as if 'im not sure if im sad or happy' kind of feeling

do you get what i mean?

will it go away?

<3 1:09 AM