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Monday, January 21, 2008

rehearsals to look forward to. right.

performing at DXO on the 27th of january.
ADS farewell party for magna gopal and salsa shines competition.
tickets are $12 now, $18 at the door. inclusive of one drink.
event starts at 7.30pm till late.

i'm excited. i guess.
more scared i think.
the whole notion that the choreo has a rep, is kinda getting to me.
i've had at least two or three nightmares of unsuccess.
and i'm breaking out again, i always break out before a performance.
and it's usually the bigger perormances. heh.
stress perhaps. mummy says it's anxiety. hmm.
just have to practice i guess. since the choreo is already done, there really isnt much more i can do.
pray.

last week of school. if i'm debarred for anything, i will know this week. after this week, i'm safe. and this week still has another five days. i hope i survive. just checked my attendance on friday, it was so terrible. i can only blame myself, i suppose.
union has been boring. go there, stand and stand. no one to dance with. nobody seems to be there. heh. made a few more friends. now my circle is multi-studio-cial. then again, i think it was to begin with, because there really wasn't anyone in dansflava for me to actually mingle with at the beginning. and i mean students, so jason and jerinne do not count. heh.

special thanks to germaine.
for the hoodie that you got for me from hong kong. it was truly an amazing gesture. thank you very much. and pass it to me anytime that is convenient for you. thanks girl. love you loads. =)

<3 11:22 AM

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

i have not been procrastinating or lazy, i've been really busy. honest. right.

open house is finally over. well, it was over since saturday, but that's not the point. i havent been that exhausted from dancing since musical. it was crazy. however, i think we did pretty well. jerinne's item kicked ass, and we had people from everywhere telling us how good it was. i'm still curious to know what peter said though.
supposed club outing to ben and jerry's turned out to be a "family" outing with jerinne. minus the "parents" because "mummy" went home to sleep and "step-daddy" could not wake her up.
it was pretty disappointing that the usuals turned up for, what was supposed to be, an entire club outing. nevertheless, i had a great time, rather enjoyable. smaller group, more personal outing i guess.
arcade after was rather interesting. haha. then we parted ways. jerinne and i headed to pick up jason and lynda, which for some reason came out as nixon when jason called jerinne, and headed to union. union-ed for awhile, and learned a-wee-bit of the choreo, then went back to the cathay to watch american gangster. which is a pretty good movie, btw.

uneventful, is all i can say for the current week. learning of choreo, which is driving me crazy. it's freaking fast. i flunked two tests, which have evidently proven that if i dont start studying, i am potentially screwed. i am at high risk of being debarred. and to top that off, i'm starting to find dancing in school very pointless. ok fine, so that isn't very drastic. but emotionally, it's indeed the icing on the cake.
i'm tired, my legs hurt, and i have not made a come back from the exhaustion accumulated during open house. but the choreo is scaring me. i'm getting nightmares abt screwing up and i feel very alone in that factor. you know, it's great when you dance a genre that everyone is doing, then when you have performances and things to learn, you have the support of friends. when you dance a genre that friends do not share, esp the ones you dance with often, you find yourself very alone. and you just feel you cannot cope becase there doesnt seem to be anyone else who believes in you. and it's not that they have told you that they dont believe in you, you just dont feel it. because there seems to be a lack of support. and i feel almost helpless. if i was learning a jazz choreo, i can ask someone from dance to help me out with it. but when it comes to salsa, no one can help because it's alien to everyone else.
helpless indeed. and i hope we get it done by this week so that next week will just be rehearsals and no more learning of choreo. and i hope weilin's latin costume works out so that i dont actually have to go and buy one. and if it does work out, i will have to wear my skin coloured heels, which actually kinda suck. heh.

<3 11:48 AM