Thursday, September 28, 2006

<3 11:45 PM

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

i'm at home again. there doesnt seem to be any work for me to do down at the shop. it's kinda sad actually. i actually like this job. but it's ok. i guess i'll just hang out and wait for them to call me. i'm too tired of chasing after my job. and there would be no point in looking for another job now, being fact that my holidays are almost over.

so here's the deal. i learn yesterday that i my hem-string injury is more severe than anybody thought. i could cause permanent damage if i'm not carefull. wait a sec! i've already caused permanent damage. i could cause more damage that's permanent. hmm. i might never dance again. that's pretty big. like a huge blow. but somehow, it doesnt compare to how i feel now. can you imagine, the thought of never dancing again cannot surpass the distress i've been feeling for the past few weeks? if you could only began to comprehend the distress that has been overwhelming. its almost crazy. but, of course, i'm worried that i wont dance again. i've got to take care of my leg and not push it too much. like i push it at all to began with. i think i will have no problem in taking melvin's slacker title. that's not a good thing, by the way.

<3 8:08 AM

Sunday, September 24, 2006

we learn in sunday school that God knows us. down to the very last strands of hair on our heads. He even knows the first thing that we're going to say when we wake up in the morning. He knows our thoughts. He knows our needs. He basically knows every little detail about us. then we wonder, that would mean He knows the choice i am going to make before i make it. wouldnt that mean we would then be living in a world without choice and freedom, because even our choices have already been pre-decided?

have you watched minority report? here is a synopsis for those who have no idea what i'm talking abt.

-In Washington, D.C., in the year 2054, murder has been eliminated. The future is seen and the guilty punished before the crime has ever been committed. From a nexus deep within the Justice Department's elite Precrime Unit, all the evidence to convict -- from imagery alluding to the time, place and other details -- is seen by "Pre-Cogs," three psychic beings whose visions of murder have never been wrong.
It is the nation's most advanced crime force, a perfect system. And no-one works harder for Precrime than its top man, Chief John Anderton (Cruise). Destroyed by a tragic loss, Anderton has thrown all of his passion into a system that could potentially spare thousands of people from the tragedy he lived through. Six years later, the coming vote to take it national has only fuelled his conviction that Precrime works.
Anderton has no reason to doubt it... until he becomes its #1 suspect.
Based on a short story by Philip K. Dick-

edited/ [for justin]
i think God is a little like these pre-cogs. when it comes to a bad situation, one in which we might sin. i figured, God has the scene where we do sin, already played out. simply because it's human nature. He has prepared this scene to take place so that he can prepare a pre-cautionary measure. if we carry it out, we would lose sight of the pre-planned life that God has entailed for us. and this pre-cautionary measure is to set our sights back on track. it's almost like when your at a junction and you take the wrong turn. then you drive on somemore looking for another turning to get you back on the right route. that turn is the pre-cautionary measure. if we decide to do the right thing and not sin, which often is not the case, then we will stay on track. and i would imagine God looking down, probably sitting on a huge gold sedan, saying something like, 'that's My child indeed, and I am truly glad.'

<3 12:55 PM

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

the house is wireless. and i didnt even need to lift a finger. go figure!

i'll be frank with you. it's been crazy. the dreams, or nightmares depending on how you look at it. the bitter comments passed from mouth to ear. the passing glances from eyes that hold a hatred that i simply cannot set a reason to. he makes me cry. comments that slash the heart like a free whip. silent sobs i suffer. silent sobs that no one else hears. tears that overflow to the outskirts of my grieving heart. oh the pain i feel. i hate him for the things he says. and yet, i have no reason to hate him. how do you hate someone you know nothing about? may it be like blind hate. for as much as love is blind so hate shall be also.

that felt good.

<3 10:44 PM

Monday, September 18, 2006

i'm not really in a mood to blog. i have so much to say but at the same time, it just seems meaningless and possibly even ridiculous to type out. i'm probably just afraid that i'll cry over my computer. and nobody, not even a depressively neurotic person, wants a wet computer.

i'll just take this opportunity to do a little shout out. to my beloved gdine.

hubby, i'm always here if you need me. and i'll even be her if you dont. basically, i'll always be here. the same way your always there for me. love you lots and lots and lots more.

<3 9:20 PM

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

and this would complete what i did on sunday. it's back dated, i know. so sue me. heh.

<3 10:46 PM

its 3 in the morning. results were released not long ago. i shall not tell you how i did because many will criticise me for the way i reacted. then again, what the hell. 2As, 1C+, 1C and 2Ds.

and this is how i reacted. 'thank GOD i passed everything, no sup and nothing to worry abt for the entire holiday.'

so maybe i scraped through. GPA 2.4 is pretty much scraping through. but i never asked much of myself, all i wanted was to pass everything. and the A that i expected for my stats, i got it. what more could i want? i'll just work harder next sem and set 2.4 as my GPA benchmark or something. apart from that, i'm going to enjoy my holiday, or what's left of it, and worry about my grades when i have to. like next sem. so until it comes to a point where i have to come to terms with the fact that i still have one more sem, just call me little miss 'i dont really care about school right now' heh.

<3 3:13 AM

Monday, September 11, 2006

it's been a crazy week. but all is good where all is well. i'm scrapbooking my china trip, so if you want to see it let me know. i'd be crazy to try and upload everything here.


peter got it good =P [it was a joke, c'mon]


the best pic of the day

up next, brace yourself for my debut performance. it was pretty awesome. danny was mesmorised? haha =)




i could fall for you over and over again. just let me.

<3 2:57 PM

Sunday, September 10, 2006

i turned 18

special thanks to all the early wishers
extra thanks to on-the-day wishers
and undeserved thanks for those who forgot and finally remembered. [you know who you are =P hur hur hur]

on my b'day i went to work and went for dance. what a b'day huh?!

<3 12:19 AM