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Saturday, April 29, 2006

i was suppose to get josh back, but in the end, i didnt. josh wont be coming back till next week. went to school for rehearsal, didnt see manda though. my gosh, you wont believe the mr and ms freshies!!! they were all, as alloysius would put it, CMI. sheng and chris would have beaten them flat out. the criteria must be retarded. the rehearsal didnt go too badly, but i'll be missing a lot of lessons, so i am kinda bummed out abt that.

cvc was pretty good. pastor ken harrison. when i went up for prayer, the first thing he said was, 'what are you worried abt?'. at first i just smiled and laughed abt because the question was so direct. but as i was telling him, i was in tears. he said there is better things to come for me. and mum's reaction to that was, that means he is not the one. so i know now that i just have to trut God and everything will work out. oh, pastor ken sure does love his seafood. heh!

he hasnt called for 1 day

<3 2:15 AM

Friday, April 28, 2006

nothing much happened today, so i have nothing much to say

i had breakfast with hub this morning, just like i said i was going to. it brought back memories. but i am absolutely certain that i am sick of the mushroom cheese prata. time to try something else. all in all, i had a whole load of fun this morning.

school was a drag. no matter what form of education one is undergoing, school will always be a drag. i have hw, alot of hw. simply because i didnt do it. i think i shld finish it simply because it will contribute to me actually doing well for my test. i am gravely hoping that i dont uck in poly. cant afford to really. i like very much to go to uni, be it law or anything else. but in the end, i think i will still like to pursue law. will just have to work to making it reality? and i still think my accounts lecturer is pretty, but she is also,most definitely, the most boring lecturer this semester.

i got my cvc cert today. uncle francis has a really big signature. i was kinda impressed at how he managed to keep it constant throughout the 100 over certs.

he called today

<3 12:34 AM

Thursday, April 27, 2006

josh is sick. my brought him to acer a&e hospital this afternoon. josh had to be admitted. they are sending him home on friday.

the marketing team geniously got into the finals. there goes my friday. have to come back for rehearsal. my body is aching from the stage arts audition. i think i put too much back into it, or i am really just unfit. i am going to go with the former. anyway, i have apologized for my evil deeds. i felt really bad. an eye for an eye isn't exactly my idea of fun. besides, three years of the same classmates, and such a small class, one shld think twice, or even thrice abt making enemies.

my mum took my sis and i shopping. i got a water bottle and a file. then we had crystal jade. yummy barley. CJ barley ; i like.

have 4 tutorials to finish. but i think i will sleep. will wake up super super early to do them tmr. just no drive to do any work tonight. feel so so very very tired. just making a point.

meeting hubby for prata tmr. didnt meet her this morning. meeting her at 7. so i will probably be up at 5 doing hw. this is why one shld stay at home when she is not suppose to be in school.

i miss hubby!!!

he hasnt called for 1 day

<3 12:57 AM

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

you messed with my mind. serial stalker you said? boo to you! i messed with yours. you know what i did.

in the midst of an awesomely united class, there is a great divide. i wonder who is in the center?

going to meet my hubby tmr. prata hub! miss her so much.

he called today. time to restart the counters. he will be back soon. i wonder what it will be like

<3 11:41 PM

Monday, April 24, 2006

my blog is up again. the links have yet to be put in though but i thinkit's a job well done. i have come to the realization that i do not make blog skins, i personalise them. it's rather interesting. as much as i would love to take credit for everything,i always have a ready made skin as a base. but it's no big. i like the stuff i come up with. for this skin, instead of using words as the links, i used pictures. i thought it was pretty ingenious. and the word expressivoughts almost sonds and looks german, how expressive? but it's a difference no doubt. same black that i am used to but the brightly coloured border is a little disturbing. but since my other blogskins are usually pretty plain or have my face all over it, a little colour [fine alot of colour] never killed anyone. besides, sheng ting seems to like it alot, so at least someone is appreciative. i just like the navigation icons.

school has been pretty ok. made good friends, more interesting lecturersthan dull ones. letures however, still as boring. saw jozer today, talked abt his cina class. haha. funny guy that jozer. so pissed at me for having a three day week, although i have yet to realize my three day week. i have been in school everyday. but it's not so bad, the two days dont really feel like school days anyway. i bumped into sahira too. and i actually got lost looking for FJ. can you believe sahira and jozer scolded me for not calling it FJ, erm well, i said food junction. what you call the place you lunch is unimportant, the only thing that is important is that you lunch. haha. i bet derek and florence agree. tmr i want jap omelette, yes serene? haha.

i have audition tmr. i hope i dont make a fool of myself? bleh. better remember to bring my jazz pants and deo. dancing in jazz pants and tee will beat dancing in shorts anyday. i think i will pack my leotard too. when i told aunty june that i was doing funk jazz, she was ecstatic. i am very sure i will have a blast, will also pray i qualify, because no attending the FB auditions was pretty much a step of faith. and i have learnt that faith is a christian's best friend. and a mustard seed of it is all it takes for miracles to happen. oh yea, marketing got through the auditions. things will just get better?

he hasn't called for 2 days.

<3 8:39 PM

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

ccas galore!!! i joined alot of them? 5 i think. but we'll see which ones pull through.

denise is such a babe
derek is a part time meanie
aloy likes to sing
flor's nickname is ah siao
madonna has a cool name
yi jun is pretty
sho is tall
i can spell TAH YUEN

that was beyond random. like out-of-this-world random?

hubby is the best. we love gdine!!! hahs! [i bet your smiling gdine]

can i speak to allison please?
yep! it's me
you busy?
sort of. call me back in 5?
nah it's ok. i'm actually going to sleep
ok bye bye then
yea, good night
aha, good night

there is something on your mind. it's at the tip of your tongue. tell me what it is. oh heck, dont tell me what it is. i decided to move on, and i would like to keep moving forward. thank you very much.

ballroom is like sex on hardwood.

<3 11:56 PM

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

hello world. i am blogging from the lab in school. my lecturer talks alot and alot and alot. now she is saying that phones are evil and relaxing is a must. oh oh, derek lives to eat.

i am bored. very bored. my skirt keeps attempting to drop. it flew up in the canteen.

the past few days have been pretty good. there was shuk's party, then i was out with hub on sunday and there was church. then i had pepper lunch yst with the clan. school is pretty much a blast too. loving the class, loving the school, love my lecturers [well, a few of them anyway].

words of wisdom from my lecturer-'i dont buy magazines, i think it's a waste of money. if you buy and you dont want can give me, i dont mind', 'when i go on holiday, i ask my parents to keep newspaper for me so i can read when i come back'.

have i mentioned that i am bored. i am bored.

<3 11:08 AM

Saturday, April 15, 2006

colin talked to me. it was nice i must say. i guess it was because he was being oddly nice. but that's ok, the world needs nice ppl. or i need nice ppl around me right now. nice pple are good. and i sent out a big thank you to colin for being nice when i needed it most.

<3 12:53 AM

Friday, April 14, 2006

went shopping just now. was suppose to meet the small group for lunch but lost all mood in the afternoon, due to alot of things. then later on at abt 3 plus, when the rain stopped, i went to meet hubby. really missed her, havent seen her for such a long time. we went to art friend and we also shopped. i had a good 3 hrs. i wanted pepper lunch but i settled for sushi, taking into consideration that dinner was only 4 hrs away. but up till now i havent had any. not hungry i guess.

anyway, here are some pictures from the orientation.

that's it for now. if i ever want jon, i have to wait 3 yrs. haha! we shall see how that goes. toodles.

<3 11:13 PM

orientation is over and school starts on monday. i get a three day week this sem. pretty awesome huh?! i'm in mk0603. the people are really cool. and there are 3 or 4 1988 babies, so i dont feel old anymore. heh!

breeks beef lasgna is very very good. but the service was a little crappy. oh, i had dinner there with amanda last night.

you think the break up is a mistake but you wont right the wrong? is it because being with me is an even bigger wrong?

<3 10:13 AM

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

had orientation today. first day. it was relly boring in the beginning, but it got better. and at the end of the day it was pretty good. after that i had dinner with rowen. he waited a whole hour for me. hees :)

i miss you boy. i miss you so much. if only you knew.

<3 9:38 PM

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

me: why does cephas and jk still bother you jon?
jon: because i blame them for everything.
me: what is everything?
jon: everything. the break up. it's because of them that i stopped loving you. not that i dont. i mean, i still love you but.....
me: but what?
jon: i dont think you want to be in a relationship where you onl see your bf for a mth every year.

stop deciding what's best for me. break up with me because you love me? a break up of nobility? give me a break jon!

<3 11:44 PM

today's lunch with amanda was totaled. no no. we didn't cancel, we had coffee instead. and i realized that it was the first time i actually sat down and had coffee with someone. as in, just the two of us. the last time i sat down and had coffee was starbucks with jon. i know it was still just the two of us, but the atmosphere was different. we actually had things to do and i had to get home so the coffee seemed rushed. so it was different today. we just sat there, with no appointments to meet and nothing to do. there was nothing to run to and just sitting there and talking abt anything and everything, it was interesting. i must do it more often. have coffee with people. not people i know really well, but people i know nothing about. you really can know alot abt a person over a cuppa. quite fascinating actually. and everything seems clearer for some reason. maybe i shld grab a cuppa with him. things might just clear up for me. who knows?!

<3 12:44 AM

Sunday, April 09, 2006

I FOUND DUH!!!

actually my sister found it, but that is not the point.

he didntcall today. maybe he finally stopped calling. so i guess i shld be happy, i can graciously move on with no doubt? but why do i feel even worse than before. i thought i wanted this. bleh!

<3 6:14 PM

Saturday, April 08, 2006

"the fact that jk still bothers me proves..."
what does it prove jon? what? you failed to finish the sentence.

"it proves that it still bothers me"?
what sort if ans is that? not acceptable.

what does it prove jon? i'd really like to know.

<3 5:59 PM

the many potentials of a person

i am POTENTIALly going insane
i POTENTIALly miss him alot
my life is POTENTIALly falling apart
my world is POTENTIALly coming to a halt
my friends are POTENTIALly too busy
my card reader POTENTIALly does not work
and i am POTENTIALly gone

yesterday was the last day of work, guess i am not as upset as before. but still a little i guess. i miss the people already.

<3 12:33 PM

Friday, April 07, 2006

i miss you

<3 12:32 AM

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

i decided i would do what hub did on her blog. although i doubt it would be as full as hers. just to help me keep track of stuff. but i wont do it tonight. maybe tomorrow during work.

i didnt expect him to call back. i actually got a shock when the phone started buzzing. anyway, it's still the same 'him'. we may have broken up but i till care. pray that he is well-guided in his internship decisionand that he makes the right one. although, if you ask me, i think he should ake a well earned break. whether it's in singapore or there. he works too hard. or at least break for a month or something.

wasnt eating again today. i think my appetite comes every other day. heh!

<3 10:38 PM

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

why are the many chapters of my love life filled with minimal pages. kinda sad huh? and i realized that i didnt eat any of my meals yst, not even one. i just had a few chocettes and some biscuit but that was eat. no breakfast or lunch or dinner. but i got hungry today, thank God. but i think i ate too much too soon, so i felt like throwing up abt half an hour aft eating.

3 more days and i will be jobless, off to prepare for poly. rowen is going to nyp. totally awesome! but we're not in the same course or school but we might still bump into each other. the school is ~~not that~~ big.

anyway, i have gone back to my 'download stupid games and play one after the other' self again. so shall go play.so far the count is 6 games in two days. i cant wait to do actual assignments on my com. haha!

<3 8:21 PM

Monday, April 03, 2006

i have decided that it was good while it lasted and i guess it would have been better if he was actually here. so maybe when he comes back in summer we'll see where things go. but i have decided, not going to put myself through a one-sided relationship or force him into one.

relationships that are rushed never last. relationships that start from relatively long friendships dont last either, or when their given the long distance treatment. guess we both weren't built for it. i love you. and maybe this can still work but some other time perhaps. had a good time baby. thank you.

<3 7:30 PM

i think it's ok. or i think it will be. he gave in again. i dunno how good that is but i guess it's all i have right now. everything will be alright? hope so.

<3 2:41 PM

Sunday, April 02, 2006

i dont know what to say. it's just been so hard. only the second day. dear Lord, give me strength to go through the week. i am breaking and breaking. i am broken? i shldn't feel this way, it's not fair to me? i got the voicemails, i received the phonecalls. but i cant do it. everything in it's time? now is just not the time.

<3 9:55 PM